Thank you, Val. I needed to read this post again today. I haven't felt very strong, attractive or confident the last few days. I have allowed finding out about the OW and that W is moving forward quickly w/ D filing to really knock me off course. I have felt panicked and depressed the last few days.

But I am working hard at getting back on course. I am forcing myself to GAL. I am exercising more and am being more consistent with meditation and reading.

I tried an Episcopalian gay friendly church on Sunday and thought it was nice but formal.

I sent my W the note as suggested (#3) After talking w/ my C, I answered some leftover questions on the financial settlement issues, but used #3 to respond to requests for info she already had, if she would look/research.

I am fighting a temptation to call her today. When does this get easier? Is it normal that I should feel so badly this far along in the process?

Me(f): 51 W: 41
DP:8 M:3 T:10
"W not happy" 7/11
D final: 8/13