crimson - i agree with the type a thing - you wrote a good description of what it comes out as in our sitches - and you saying that it would be the mother of all 180's - oooh - lightbulb moment for all of us.
that's the next 180 for me - for sure
i know you're in a hard spot - but stay cool and don't let what hasn't happened yet overwhelm you
it's amazing - whatever i';m struggling with in the moment, i come here and read the threads and there's someone else going through the same thing, and then i read what others write to them to support them, and it helps me so much
what i'm working on myself and which eases things and may help you - every time i'm upset about something with the sitch, i look at it as resistance on my part in how things are playing out. and then i see that in every area that i resist - that's what h can push against and keep his stance and keep moving away. so the less i resist - the less fuel he has to keep his resistance up - you can't keep fighting against something that won't fight back, can you?
take care zig
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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
