Not sure where to start, Part 2

[wishing, hoping]

So on the way home H calls to see if I am taking S to soccer practice. I say yes and I will pick up D too. He says he will pick up S after practice and pick up some beer. I ask if he will get some for me as well and he says yes. I was upbeat, friendly and happy. He seemed somewhat receptive on the phone but by the time I got home he was back in his shell. He barely grimaced at me when I walked in and immediately picked up his iPad and buried himself in Cityville or whatever it is. So weird. H used to give me the look whenever I would play Angry Birds Or a game of solitaire. He is just so unlike himself it makes my head spin.

So when I am happy and upbeat he retreats. When I seem upset and despondent he is upbeat and happy!!! Do I really make him that miserable?? I am starting to think this divorce is a good thing because he really affects my mood. Maybe time apart is best for the both of us. He has obviously changed for the worse. Which is a shame because he used to be such a wonderful, caring, genuine man. I feel like a widow.