Journaling--He texted and came over after the kids got out of school as expected. I stayed busy and he wanted to take our son to play ball at the park. I said great and ran some errands I needed to run with my daughter and we met back up at a restaurant to all have dinner together. It was good, we had positive interactions, I just feel like I initiate most of the talk and he really doesn't volunteer much or loosen up much. He never asks anything about me or seems interested in me. I feel so invisible sometimes. It is hard to deal with, he is usually a very outgoing guy. I know it is being around me that is causing it. I'm not sure how else to keep it light and get the atmosphere to change though. He had to go to work, so he left from the restaurant and we'll probably text tonight to figure out a meeting time to go to the appointment in the morning.
Right now, I feel sad and upset. Even though it was all on the surface fine, it just feels so empty. I don't think I am talking too much or acting strange with him, I feel pretty normal, but he is definitely not able to relax and be normal with me around like I am hoping for. I hope it is still fall-out from Saturdays big mess-up and he is going to keep relaxing. I know it definitely has drilled into my head not to let Saturday happen again! These are getting harder to come back from, and I'm afraid he will really start not being around me at all if it keeps happening.
Tomorrow morning we will go to the prenatal appointment, and then tomorrow night it is family night at my son's school, so we were going to go to the book fair and then eat somewhere kid friendly with them before my husband goes to work again.
M 36 H 36 D9,S6, Expecting D in August 2012 M 13 T 18 Told me he wanted to separate 12/31/2011 Moved Out 2/2/2012 Didn't want to work on things, wanted divorce 4/20/2012
