I have no idea why she would make so many positive comments about me and still drift onward toward D. Maybe you're right and it is a test. Maybe she is trying to offset guilt by being excessively kind? If she IS looking for a reaction, I don't know what it is. I try not to react at all. She seems to be asking me "Are you OK?" a lot these days.
I guess the time is coming for me to initiate a R talk....I pretty much know what I would like to say, and at this point I feel as though I have nothing to lose. I want to be able to ask her if she is willing to work on things, why no do it while separated and not divorced?
***Honestly, for women and WAWs out there, is there something cathartic, or freeing about the divorce??***
I really do not know.
Maybe she is hurting, too. But she seems perfectly fine and at peace with ending the marriage. She can talk about it without a problem. I guess the way I see it, I am not willfully taking anything from her....she is losing time with our son, but that is her choice and a reality that my son and I have to live with right now.
Some days I just feel angry and I don't know where to put it. I will not show it to her at all. But sometimes I just want to scream WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?! IF you claim you are wanting to work on the relationship and open to it -- why??
