Nothing new to report, except that I think XW / roomie has given up on the syringes and is now on Medifast. I feel sorry for her sometimes that she cannot seem to lose the weight. Other than that she's carrying on as if everything's fine, although except for Easter, she's quit going to mass. I had to go twice yesterday, once for early duty and once to take S13 'cause I let him sleep in. I'm such a freaking saint! LOL.
Interactions remain cordial but very brief, and I admit to perpetuating a kind of avoidence out of habit. I just don't hang around in the same room / space with her, and she does likewise. We haven't talked since the D negotiations, and I've been conditioned negatively. Every time she wanted to chat in the past year she's either dropped a bomb or some other bad news on me. These days, it's always about her wanting me to pay for something for the kids. I kinda dread talking to her actually, which meshes nicely with Gritter's advice to me way back in the beginning, to just STFU. Best advice I ever got I think.
I recall posting a few posts ago about her not going to see OM on spring break and wondered about that. Well this past weekend I was getting coffee in the kitchen and she was in there. I happened to notice she left her I-phone on the counter and OM's name was on the screen, so she's still texting. The discovery didn't really bother me. But unfortunately for my opinion of her, it proves she remains stupidly involved with a married man in another state. Ah yes, but it makes perfect sense to her, doesn't it?
And in case you're curious - no, I have not yet broached the subject of her moving out. I am metaphysically certain, however, that the opportunity will present itself soon enough, and we'll go from there. No matter, I am living "in the moment" as it were every day, not looking in the past nor too far forward. As someone said, "Life is a gift, enjoy it."
Keeping all you DB'ers in my prayers still, Pic
Me 53 XW 50 M 18 Years +2 S14 D19 Bomb 10-24-10 Served 1-27-11 Mediate 4-21-11 Civil D Final 6-2-11 No church anullment "A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."
