I know I am all over the place today, folks - so please forgive me. My head is sprinting a mile a minute.
What I am really struggling to grasp is how she can look at me and say:
"You set the bar pretty high. There aren't a lot of good guys like you out there"
"You're such a great father"
"I bet there are a million women out there that would date you"
"You are lucky to be so handsome"
And yet, be OK with going all the way through to divorce. If there was someone that possessed all of those traits AND you shared a child with them AND you both want another child - why would you be OK just tossing it all away? Maybe in her mind she isn't....I don't know. She seems to want to work on the reltaionship - but I don't know why she feels that has to be done while DIVORCED and not just separated. What is it about the actual divorce itself that is so necessary for her?
I feel like I get a lot of mixed signals. And I am struggling with how to proceed. I don't want to pull back because I feel as if that would be poorly received and the wrong thing to do - yet at the same time my mind is getting weary acting "as if" all of the time. I KNOW it's the right thing to do - there have been no fights, no arguments, no poor exchanges...we have been getting along. She just seems dead set on terminating the marriage.
