Once Reconcilliation Has Occurred

[Underdog]

Oh, Trish, I didn't mean to bring tears to your eyes?

I was actually going to respond to everyone in e-mail today, but I got bonked on the head this morning with some clarity, and figured it would be a waste not to share those limited milliseconds of brilliance with my friends.

Seriously, I have done NO work today! I might decide to do one small task just to make sure I can go home feeling as though I contributed to the overall financial stability of my employer...

But since I have some time to spare before I get started on that 2 minute task, I'm back.

If it makes you feel better, I have done the "If only I had done..." game myself. I don't think you were being arrogant? But someone who was desperate for answers on how she came to arrive at such an unpleasant destination? And one game I think we all play until we realize that this absolutely MUST play out in order for all of us to be in a better place?

I think your post was nothing short of brilliant.

I do know that the more I live in the moment, the less I feel I need to have the things I think I need in order to move forward. I believe I hear a voice inside my head (hoping it's our friend, God) saying, "Trish, don't worry! I've got this all under control. Trust me!"

Believe me, He says those words to me all the time.

I told N the other day that before our split, I used to pray to God to bring me a man who could love me with all his heart. I really and truly did not allow for the possibility that it would not be my H. And look how hard I fought it? All I can say now is "Thank you for giving me the opportunity to see your work in progress. You've been answering my prayers all along, and I realize that no path to that outcome was going to be without immense pain. But you brought me to it, and you've brought me through it. Thank you."

And thank YOU for being one of my loyal friends.

Hugs and lots of love,

Bets