Thank you for your suggestions and your warmth. I love the flowers idea and yeah, did some visualisations before bed. A party sounds like a good idea, but I've never really been a party person (maybe a 180 to explore.)
I also spoke to my sister, and she helped a lot too. She is very pro my relationship, as is most of my family and also my H's family. So, it was all very helpful.
Something in me has shifted this morning. All my visuals has helped I can feel. They also helped to bring back my optimism and my feelings of love, which have always been there for my H. This morning, I woke up with renewed vigour and strength. I have begun to visualise my H and I back together in a loving, laughing, caring way - in a real way. Sure we'll have the two or three stress points to still work through, but the majority of our time I see us spending in a joyful manner. It's seems like such an obvious visual to have, but I never had that visualisation until last night (can you believe!).
Those are the vibes I want to send out, and that is what I will carry on with every day now.
