My main focus today has been trying to keep my thoughts positive. If I have any hope of H wanting a R with me again, I have to be happy. (I can't even believe I'm saying that after everything I've been through with him.) I backslid so much after I found out about the PA and I probably ruined everything but, honestly, I still think my H has to think about me. How could he not? I'm not saying that I'm going to aggressively move towards trying to get him back. No way... I'm just saying that I know the potential that I have.
I know he fell in love with me for a reason and I am actively trying to find that girl again. If not for him, then for someone else. My negativity has been the death of me. I realize that more than ever right now. One thing that I've been really trying to keep my focus on is remembering that God has a purpose for this. It's happening for a reason. I am learning so much about myself. I'm growing from it. Which I otherwise would not have been able to do if my R was in the same state as it was before our separation. I know God will take care of me if I continue to keep Him in my life and trust in Him. Everything will fall into place as it should. This is what brings me comfort.
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
