Friday night was awesome with my H and kids. H was less grumpy then he usually is and we just had a amazing evening. I made all his favorite things. Lasagna and chocolate chocolate cupcakes. The girls and H, did the icing and decorated. My H is also allergic to gluten so he not getting good gluten free cupcakes and lasagna like I make all the time!
H asked me at 7 if he should leave or stay for bath/bedtime routine. I said it would be nice if he could stay. It was wonderful. We washed the girls and read them bedtime stories. At one point H noticed a closet by the girls room filled with his bike gear. He said he would take it home with him. I said that would be nice, then he only took 1 thing from the closet.
I tried just staying in the moment and I loved it. Eventually H put D3 to sleep and I snuggled with D2 in my bed. Eventually D2 and I fell asleep together and H left.
It hard to believe an evening like that didnt give him second thoughts.
I also learned the other day that H is reading a book called The Social Animal by David Brooks. Its a mainstream pshycology/socialogy book about the subconscious influences on a person decision making process. I bought the book this weekend. Its pro marriage. The book tells me he is searching for answers to something, he just doesnt know what he is looking for.
Today was a good day.
I still believe.
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
