today is another day. still feel sick. don't want to look at her. went to church with just the kids. they were horrible. no peace there. then laundry, grocery shopping and soon a pool party for my D. no help from the W. she has homework. instead of doing it fri or sat she wanted to go have drinks then talk on the phone all day. somehow its my fault it isnt done. oh well. getting used to being a scapegoat.
i fear i am turning into a WAS. i don't care a whole lot anymore. i feel broken. at the store there were couples shopping together looking happy. i just wanted to leave. probably forgot a bunch of stuff. i am not in a good mood and everything is getting to me. uuuggghh. i just want to sleep
