Thanks Accuray, I am almost halfway throughout it, it really does apply to my sitch. I just always like to have another book on order, for me reading these boards and the books makes me feel proactive, and it decreases my anxiety.
I have had an interesting weekend. H has been around a lot, hanging with the kids. He suggested that we eat dinner together tonight "as a family" for the kids sake. He then said that he wants to do that every Sunday even after the divorce and until I am with someone else and don't want him to come over anymore. Then he started to cry. I tried to just listen and validate. I felt like the conversations this weekend were all reversed, like I was the one leaving. But I tried to just validate, even though at times I would catch myself dominating the conversation and he should get quiet. At least I notice myself doing this.
I did GAL and go out with friends last night, but there is still a big piece of me that is not myself.
M 37, H 37 M 10, T 12 S 4 D 2 3/14/12 ILYBNILWY 4/2/12 H consults a L, files nothing 4/26/12 H moves to his new place
