v- i've read your thread and it gives me hope in alot of ways. i have a few q's for you if you don't mind. i am an alcoholic. i got sober 9/11. my wife has been to 2 alanon meetings. she said she doesn't want to go back because it will make her hate me more. i thought that was wierd. i assumed they are like aa meetings. are they? does your H going to aa meetings help you regain some trust in him. or help you see that he is changing. me being sober is a big deal and i am loving working my program. the changes i've seen in myself so far are very encouraging. my W says its an act. i'm fine with that. i know its not.