I am thinking maybe it was a bit much too soon. You have let him know that you miss him now step back. Continue working on you and being present more often.
We tend to see something positive and then try to build on that and make it all better NOW! It doesn't work that way though. Keep seeing the positives in yourself. Your s will reflect those back to you.
Kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory