Sweetie, there really isnt anyone on here that would be able to tell you definitively if it is MLC or not.
Follow your gut on that one.
Let's for now say that it is. First things first. There is nothing wrong with you feeling as you do. This is tough stuff, real tough.
You are blindsided and feel like you got hit in the gut.
I will tell you this, though. The sooner you begin to detach, the better you will begin to feel.
I know it seems impossible, but, it isnt.
You did not imagine your years together. Your h is in crisis.
He cant understand what is wrong. So, he lashes out at the person closest to him. He thinks if he can get out of the marriage, then he'll be happy. When that doesnt work, he will try something else.
Until he realizes the problem is inside of him, he will continue to seek ways to stop the pain.
Now, you can do two things. You can continue to call him and ask him questions. But that will result in more of the same of what you are getting.
He is thinking - see she doesnt hear me, she doesnt get it, she hasnt changed. It's more of the same.
Now that might seem crazy to you. But to him, it is very real.
And you trying to figure out what everything he says means - well, that will just have you spinning in circles.
You need to show him that you hear him. And then you need to leave him be.
I know it's so very hard, having all this on you. I do.
But, that is the way it is right now.
So, put your marriage safely in a box and store it away for now.
I know it seems unbelievable what I am going to say to you. But, if you choose to walk this journey, I promise you that you will come out the other side forever changed. Stronger, wiser and the person you were meant to be.
So, honey, please stop calling him. He is telling you some very important things. He feels bad when you call. It is pressure to him.
It's best to let him to try to slay his demons on his own. And everytime you do things like that, you slow down the process.
Make yourself a promise that today you are not going to call him and you are going to start to look inward.
Hit a pillow, go in the car and scream. And then, do one thing for you. One small thing.
Make sure you eat right, rest when you can, pray if you are so inclined.
