April, I dont think I can help you with what to do but Ive become an expert at what not to do. Ive begged,pleaded,cried,threatened to divorce her, even bought her her own house in town because there were no apartments available. I can feel your anger. I have it for my W at times. Its so very hard to detach. You still love him even though it makes no sense. Im with you on that.
You have come to a good place. There are many kindred spirits here who care about you and what youre going through. We are all here to help and be helped. I find much strength here. You will too.