Thank you all for your word of encouragement. It rained again, so no field work today. Have been trying to stay busy here at home. Always something to do if I feel like it. I'm feeling very lonely tonight. I need a good cry. But the tears won't come. Maybe I'm getting better. I am really missing my W tonight.
Aprilt, I look forward to the day that I will feel that peace you speak of. It seems so far away from me. Its been such a long time since I've been relaxed and happy.
Labug,its hurts to think that she maybe wanted something different for her life for all those years. I hope she finds herself. And I hope when she does that I can be a part of her life once again. Until then I wait and watch.
Sandi, I so appreciate your views from the other side. I look back to your old posts often. You remind me of my good other sex friend. She will from time to time play devils advocate and look at thing from W point of view. Even when she knows it might hurt, she makes me think. Please continue to check on me. It helps to here of success sometimes.You are very wise.
Tomorrow I plan on going to the lake. My sister will be there. She has been very important in my struggle. I know she checks on this blog once in awhile. If your here Sis, a big thank you. You have been here for me many times and quite literally saved me.
To all who check on me from time to time, a big thank you also. Its helps so much to hear from you all. If you haven't stopped by for awhile, do so. I need all the support I can get. I may be slow sometimes, but I will always get back to you.
