Detached, but not Broken-a diary of a LRT

[Broken74]

Thanks for your feedback Rick! I only put part of the story up in this post, but I think I literally have no expectations at this point, it would be utterly illogical for me to have any, because she is giving little to inclination to the fact I even exist at this point.

There was preexisting arrangement that she would be making the car and insurance payments on the 20th of each month, that has been in place since December, and she hasn't missed a beat until now. So I guess there are "business" expectations in that she committed to pay on time, but there are no personal/relationship expectations tied to this. When I bought the car did I think it may help, of course I certainly didn't think it would hurt. She always loved my "making her dreams come true" which is what I was trying to do. Obviously a big mistake that allowed her to cake eat I should have never done it.

I don't have any expectations tied to the 529k investments. I will never see those again and am doing that because I think it is the right thing to do for my stepchildren. Their biological fathers will never provide as such, and there's no guarantee that she'll find another man that will, so I'm doing that because they deserve a shot as well. They had no choice in who their mother chose to lay down with or throw away.

So the only expectation I have is that she pay the car payment like she gave her word she would do, if anything changes in our R in the future it will be by her choice, I am doing my thing and showing unconditional love in the only way I can think of given where we are at this point.

I have certainly proven myself to be dense in the past however, so if you see other expectations I have not mentioned can you spell them out for me? I am still very much learning here, if I would have listened earlier on I would probably be in a different situation entirely.

Thanks again Rick!