He's still away on his trip and I think it is going well for him. We texted back and forth a little last night talking about old memories, etc, from the Army days. He was really happy to be on the trip and he is having a good time.
Today he texted around noon and let me know he was still there and having a good time. I encouraged him to stay another day, but he said he'd probably drive back tonight. He will let me know later what his plans are. He switched nights with a co-worker though, so that he can stay or get back late if he wants to. I am kind of hoping he is really seeing the positive attitude on my part and that it will help him see things can exist this way. I really do feel fine with it too. I trust him to behave in ways that respect me, and I have been pretty relaxed and enjoying the time around here with the kids and working on some cleaning to move things around for the baby.
I hate that feeling of wishing I would have had these realizations before he got to the point where he wanted to leave the marriage. It took him doing that to open my eyes and see what was going on. And now I feel like it is irreversible sometimes. Most of the time actually. I actually did have a good guy too. He has always been there for me and still is, he has just put up a lot of walls to protect himself from falling back into the relationship. I see the issues he was upset with and am making genuine changes to fix my part in things, I'm just really afraid it is too little too late.
M 36 H 36 D9,S6, Expecting D in August 2012 M 13 T 18 Told me he wanted to separate 12/31/2011 Moved Out 2/2/2012 Didn't want to work on things, wanted divorce 4/20/2012
