A couple minutes ago H just texted me to tell me to pack warm clothes for my kids and their coats. I said what am I packing for? He said... camping.

This may not seem like a big deal but this is my reality. I am no longer a part of anything. I would give anything to be going camping with my family for the weekend. I can't even imagine how Christmas is going to be. No doubt OW is going with him and probably other people in his family or friends from their work. How is it that I am so easily replaced?

I cannot stop crying. I don't know how to do this. I will forever have to hear about him and her and I just don't think I can take it.

I just feel like I keep getting punched in the stomach over and over again. I just want it to stop.

Me: 32 H: 32
M 9 yrs
#1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2
Bomb 8/12/11
H moved out 8/14/11
PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12
Got my own place 8/25/12
H & OW move in together 9/15/12
Still married.