Shew i just typed a whole reply and it vanished. lets try this again.
Creed why do you hesitate to post to me? I don't want anyone to feel that way. To answer some of your questions. Yes bf is emotionally unstable. Yes I feel like I walk on egg shells. Yes I think hes verabally abusive. Yes he has a short fuse When he made the DONT PLAY GAMES comment, it was more like a child saying don't take my toys away"!and yes kinda like or else. I think he meant, don't say it unless you are gonna do it. I have told him he needed help, but of course that comment doesnt help things. Let me back up, because on here we tend to give one sided stories not meaning to. I want to tell exactly what was said to get the correct opinion and advice. It started by him talking about my bills and how i might cut back. I dont give him anything to stay in his house except I pay for our phones. He said to me that i could save money by him getting his own phone and me just paying for mine. I said Why? Do you want your own phone? THAT set him of. He said I am trying to HELP you with your bills and what do you do but have insecurities. He said, loudly, I know what you mean by that. I know you have an agenda with your questions. He does this alot with me. He says I listen to everything you say and I know you play games with me. So the conversations went bad from there. Me trying to calm him down. Finally at one point I said J you are not stupid, (because he made that comment also), but neither am i. I said you can't do anything to me my xh hasn't done. He said. "Wanna bet" He said he was angry. He says I back him in corners. He says he hates to yell and cuss at me but I give him no choice. He says I irritate him so bad he dont want to even talk to me anymore. I honestly dont know what i do. I mean sure we all can be irritating but it seems his expectations are unreal.
Why do i take this? Well I have had some counseling and was told that because my mom was abusive, mostly verbally, and because i had to live with that alone when my dad took off, that i think i have to just deal with it and go on. I think i have to endure I guess. I feel sorry for him. He has cut himself off from family and the world. He is a one man band. Doesnt let anybody in. Can take care of himself type of attitude. I dont generall get mad, its a waste of engery to me. I just listen and when its too much, i hang up. He can be the best person and then, yep Creed, he turns at something I say, because he things i am playing games for example.
I live in his house with his things. My nephew loves it here and so do i. He lives out of state. I guess i figure i can just go on with my life and keep my eyes open to something else if it comes around. Mean time I am going to school and enjoying my life the best way i know how.
