It is really hard not to email her. I can talk myself out of the phone calls. Yes, I still want to beg her back. I think that it is more of a win or lose thing. A game to me in some way. I don't like it.You just think that if I word it a different way or maybe I didn't say the right thing-and you want to make contact. I hate it. Her OM should be home this weekend. I will be stressing over that even though I know there is nothing I can do about it. She told me they were only a week old and that he was not invested in her. I had a girl call me Monday when we were together and she got mad and cried. Now she is saying go out on a date, it might do you good. I guess I will.
