The money involved in her moving out is the least of my concerns. If losing that is one of the things it takes for her to come home then I'm willing to see it go.
True posed a lot of questions there, most of which I don't think I really have the answers to right now. One answer I do have though is when we said those vows I meant them. If her taking space and time away is what will ultimately lead her back then I'm willing to see where it goes. At the same time, it's abundantly clear that I need to see what I really want as a person. My entire adult life up until now has been devoted to her so it's a matter of what comes next.
On a different note, today is 2 weeks from when I stopped checking up on her texting. Yesterday was a little bit of a struggle with it because I had to go pay the cell phone bill but I didn't crack. Since I've stopped looking at the activity every day I do at lease feel a little better. I'm not constantly wondering if she's talking to OM or getting my hopes up when there's no activity for a while.
It's looking like she's going to be moving out next weekend. I signed up for a 5k in the morning next Saturday and I have a double-header for softball the following day on Sunday so I'm making sure I'm busy and not around too much during that process. Knowing me, if I was there I'd end up helping her which I'm not planning on doing.
M: 29 W: 29 T: 12 years M: 4 years Discovered OM: 02/10/12 ILYBNILWY: 03/01/12 W Moves Out: 05/04/12 Reconciliation Starts: 09/06/12 In-house Separation (Again): 03/09/13
