You know AJ I think that's where Im just so frustrated and overwhelmed. I feel like if I keep searching for answers that I will get them, and THEN the pain will be gone for good.
I think perhaps maybe I have accepted many things, but I expected the pain to go away with coming to terms with all of this.
Im struggling with GAL. Im really, really stuck! You know the majority of my social circle was Xh family. That has all changed, nothing is the same between all of us anymore. No friends to do anything with, no family around, a job that [censored] the life out of me, and only my kids to hang around with. I enjoy doing things with my kids, but I don't want to them to feel like a crutch for entertainment for me.
I really just don't know what to do with myself. Im looking into college in the fall. But I do realize that I need more relationships in my life, more meaningful ones. I guess I just don't know where to go.
