No problem my friend. It is very tough spot. You are doing very well. You are not even a year into the bomb yet. So my goal is to help you get to a point where when you hit the triggers of a year ago.... You can function. For your son. For you. And also for your wife.
Though you both may not realize it yet. With you being sane. You are helping both your futures. Which ultimately helps your sons future.
Just keep moving forward and controlling your life.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!