yeah.. i've been trying to do stuff for myself. i'm workin out for bout 20 mins and running for about 20 mins a nite. i go to aa meetings 2 times a week. that stuff seems to be helping. i'm just so wore out. not knowing what is going on is takin its toll. i'm a fixer i guess, but i'm not tryin to fix her. i hope she does that for herself. i am working on me and have been since january. i have a long way to go, but i see some improvements. i like that.
not pursuing is so hard. i dont want to come off as cold, and that would make stuff worse. one of her biggest complaints about me when i drank is, i didnt pursue basically. i didnt really involve myself to much with her. i dont know. i'm so lost
