WAW told me she doesn't want to be married pt3

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Still around and pretty much on the verge of being done. I am 3/4 done with that last 1/4 hoping she will eventually change her mind. I have spoken with a lot of friends that know us and they still can't believe she is acting this way. Went to my in-laws house for dinner with my kids last week. They invited me over again. They don't even know what she is thinking. I know they will not approve of the guy she is with now. Her dad even called her a fool. So I have become the spouse only a fool would leave.
I have been doing much better over the past month. Had a slight set back last weekend 4/15. One of my good friends mom passed away and the funeral was one day before my dads death anniversary. My wife came to the funeral as well and we sat next to each other. Joked a little she noticed I was wearing my fathers ring and said sorry to me regarding the next day. The rabbi was talking about the relationship the mother had with the father and how they spoke all the time and would go out etc. This I could tell bothered my wife, I did not look over but could sense she tensed up a little. When I dropped of my kids that night one of the other drinking couples came home and were in the parking lot. I got this look from the wife that seemed like a pity stare.
One thing that has helped is everyone is complimenting me on how I look. Lost 16 pounds and I am more muscular.
I am now on dating sights and was emailing with two women but now nothing. I am ready to see what is out there. I know it is not the thing to do. But it will be one year next Tuesday and I need to live for myself and kids.
Been busy the past few weekends as well. Went to see Gabriel Iglesias with my friend whose mother passed. This past weekend went and saw Rodrigo y Gabriela with another friend. These were the tickets I offered to my wife but since she turned them down I went with friends and enjoyed the whole time. Didn't think of her once. This weekend I am flying out to visit friends in Los Angeles. So I am keeping busy.
Also assistant coaching my sons t ball team and loving every minute I spend with my kids.
My goal is to start looking for a house for the three of us this summer and hopefully be able to move in end of summer into fall. They deserve a backyard to play in and I want my own place.