Clinging...you seem so raw yet from the divorce.

It sounds like you have at least been separated since 2009 and while I know there is no timeline to healing, I am concerned that it is still so fresh for you

I also agree with Barb

I am a chubby girl and more than 50 pounds overweight. But, I am happy...I have a successful and satifying career, am loving, a great mom, talented, creative, generous and beautiful

the weight is only a factor for me

not Cori

and certainly not anyone else who has been in my life

not his cop friends who come over and tell him how lucky he is to have me, not my collegues who, not knowing my life story, asked me out on dates etc. Our physical appearances do NOT make us good life partners

our souls do

what do these guys give your exes that they were needing? affirmation? attention? freedom? feeling better about themselves?

for example
physically, Cori may not be the most muscular guy I have ever dated
but
he tells me every day I am beautiful
he tells me everyday how much he loves me
and
he lets me be all tough and ghetto at home
but he protects me every second of everyday (like he walks with his body to the curb and me on the inside)
I even feel safe when he is at home and I am at work because I know that in a heartbeat...no questions...all the muscles and workouts that other guys did NEVER gave me that