i am confused as to why i am struggling so much since finding out about the OW and that my W is preparing the D papers this week. i feel so anxious and emotional, much like i felt right after my situation started. why is that?
my friend got frustrated with me yesterday and felt like this has been a long time, that i should have been prepared for this, that i actually had suspected it so i should not be reacting so strongly. (she has been wonderful and i know i need to stop talking about it/give her a break, i think i have done well at that recently, till this latest news.)
is what i am experiencing the norm or not? i did not want to get out of bed today. i did though. i am functioning, going to work, etc. but feel numb/surreal choking back the tears most of the time, wanting to be home instead. i am taking an AD.
i just wonder if it is normal that this is hitting me so hard? has anyone else experienced it? it makes me doubt my growth in this process.. like i have been kidding myself that i am making progress with detaching. instead i am still wrapped up emotionally in every move my W makes.
did i mention that the OW is 13 years younger than I? ouch.
thank you.
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13
