Everwhere is walking distance if you have the time

[ClingingToHope]

I've been taking a break from the boards for a while. I've been coming here every time I hit a bit of a bump or see or hear about XW with BF. That just gets me thinking about it all over again.

Journaling -- was a little league ump this past weekend for the first time and ... it was fun. I worked six games -- one more than scheduled because an ump didn't show. My first game was awful. My third game had all kinds of weird crap in it. Otherwise, it went pretty smoothly. They paid me extra for having to do four games by myself. I made $265. I'm already scheduled for enough games to make an extra $1,040. If nothing else happens, this extra will get me through summer.

I'm also less than a month away from being able to redo my 401(k) loan and pay off my car. Every little bit helps.

D13 had her school play Friday night and she nailed it. XW came alone. After we sat together for 10 minutes waiting for D13. She jabbered away -- she's a lot more talkative now that we're not together. I listened and stared straight ahead.

Then I took D13 out for the after play party before heading out with friends.

Funny thing is when I did go out I saw my very first girlfriend. She got divorced last year as well. I never really got over her either -- first love. She was out with her new boyfriend. He seems like a nice guy, but he's about 50 pounds overweight.

So my XW and first love both are dating guys way overweight. I thought to myself, should I quit staying in shape and start scarfing down cheeseburgers every day?

Saturday and Sunday were the umpiring and my legs were shot so I didn't do much Saturday night.

Monday, I took D9 to her dance class and then dropped the girls off at XW's. She stayed home because she had dental surgery and when I pulled up, there was BF's truck. I wasn't expecting that and my face froze and the girls noticed. But I said everything was fine and let them out.

I emailed XW later to ask if we can permanently switch week nights. I've been having the girls on Wednesdays since August 2009. I thought it would be a nice mid-week thing and it has been.

But the local chamber of commerce and economic development council have their public events on Wednesdays. They have one hour networking before each event. The events are important for work. The networking is what I really want to go to.

Plus, I'd rather have a schedule where I have the girls four days in a row rather than one on, one off, then three days in a row. Now, there's too much back and forth.

The bad thing is it would necessitate me moving or eliminating the church group. I'd be inclined just to move it. But in the end, that's not that big of a deal.