The coming month is going to be very trying. Folks remind me to leave things in God's hand...to let it go, because he knows what best for our son. Well, the leaving-it-with-God part is really the toughest part for me. I can't bear to imagine if the courts (or He) say that what's best for our son is life without me or less of me.
Of course, that just reveals a lack of faith and trust on my part and exposes the fragility of my being right now.
It's so easy to lash out, but I won't.
It's so tempting to be angry and spiteful at my wife, but I won't.
It's so easy point fingers, but I will keep looking at myself first.
It's so easy to go the worldly route, so I will look to God instead.
It's so hard to love and forgive, but I will because it's the right thing to do.
