What do I do next? Part 3

[luvhurts49]

Let's just throw another log onto the fire while we're at it. So I had set up an appoint to see my S12 IC and who shows up, my W and kids. Apparently, there was some confusion as to who set up the appointment, but nonetheless, I set up a new appointment but got to talk with him for a couple minutes anyway.

So I go to leave and my S3 says he wants to go "home" with daddy (keep in mind that he only calls my house "home", whereas my W lives at grandpa's). I try to explain that he has to stay with his mommy and I would see him in a few days. But he is relentless and keeps saying that he wants to go "home" with daddy.

At this point I am visibly shaken and beginning to tear up because in my mind, this shouldn't be happening. Our kids shouldn't every have to make that kind of choice whether to go with mom or dad and that it just be the same place...it should just be "home". I feel so heartbroken that this is happening and it hurts to hear my S3 making this choice to be with me instead of his mom on her day to be with him.

Anyway, finally my W just looks at me with the most unemotionally look I have ever seen...no frown, no scowl, no sign of teary eyes, nothing. She looks at me and says, if you wanna take him with you, go ahead because he's just going to bed when we get home. My heart literally jumped out of my chest and a piano fell on it. I could not believe that my W, this wonderful person who is the most caring and loving person I've ever met, could be so cold and unemotional. It's one thing to be that way towards me, but our kids? I was in utter shock. I almost lost it. I had tears coming down my face as I went to leave with my S3 and she had the nerve to ask me if I was alright. I simply could not believe it. I don't think I have ever been so disappointed in my life.