JS, the week during bomb, i actually took a bottle of my h. painskillers and sat them on my coffee table. That lasted about one day, i could never do that to my kids. And thnkfully it looks like we won't end up in court. Just signing in l. office. You are amazingly strong. I really don't like my screen name. I'm not hopeless, but not hopeful either. I don't know what I am. This has been such a whirlwind. Sometimes I can't even believe it is happening. I hope to achieve some peace like you.