i read this about unconditional love and i keep telling it to myself
"i love you and so i don't care what you think"
it means something different from what it seems to mean at first glance - basically - even if you are thinking and doing these things that are so hurtful to me, i love you anyway
i think we all go through the "i screwed up" phase over and over again on the roller coaster - until we truly let go and fully accept. start to see the pattern of how you get pulled in. i can't say with complete confidence that in spite of seeing the pattern i am able not to get pulled in, but at least i can say that now i recognize the pattern and the follow-up screwy conversation that leaves me upside down. my next step is to find a way not to get pulled in.
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
