*Tuesday* (today)
I feel like we went back to the beginning.

She brought up the conversation. I don't think I said more than a handful of words. I listened and then excused myself. I needed time to myself. I didn't get angry. I told her that I do have strong feelings for her.

Her points (again...)
*She's not feeling "it"
*It's not fair to me to stay in this relationship
*She doesn't know what to do. She's not sure if space is needed.
*She wonders if we should have just split the last time we had problems (when she had an affair)
*She loves me as a friend and loves me with our Son. She needs me with him.
*She doesn't feel that counseling will help. She said a counselor can't make you feel love. She said we "know how to talk to each other so why go to counseling"
*She has no idea what to do. She said it's so hard to figure out because of our son.


My Questions:
*If she asks for space (asks me to leave) what do I say or do? This is my home! I don't want to go stay with family. I don't want to be away from my son.

*I guess I just keep doing my 180 for me? It was hard today. I had to walk away from the conversation before I got emotional.

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Side notes:
She's on her phone again all the time... she's constantly on Facebook. Our weekend was great but now that she's back at work things are horrible. My suspicion is still that there's someone else at her work. She just left to go to a friends house for a while.
One of her friends called while we were driving home from work. It turns out she has a "photo shoot" (lingerie style) scheduled in a few weeks. She said she was planning it as a surprise for me. For me? Really... I'm not buying it. frown Do I just keep ignoring these obvious behaviors?

M34 W35
S5 S2
T10 M6
on/off over the years including her A
Recently-
Nov 2015 bomb
Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling
Feb bomb
March-April Reconciling
May - bomb
Mid-May I tell her I'm done