Needing some guidance... 2

[jks]

I do have A LOT of anger towards him. I went from thinking we were going to be ok to finding out he was having a PA to him saying he wants me back to him saying nevermind I'm "in love" with OW and want a divorce. This all happened in a matter of weeks.

I cannot stand to listen to him talk to me about how much he is hurting and how this is affecting him. These were HIS choices, not mine. Like I said, the only way for me to feel better about the situation is to pretend he doesn't exist and to push him away as much as possible.

I don't know any other way to go about doing it. I'm sure as time goes on I will release the anger but all of this is too raw in my mind. Talking with an attorney about child support and custody was absolutely insane to me. And I told H how much the attorney said he would owe me for child support and alimony and he said, "does he know that I need to live too?"

I guess he should have thought about that. Not my problem anymore.