the path is the goal...

[zig]

hi labug - thanks for checking in. i'm okay - just trying to get ready for my sale this friday.
i have a lot of posts to reply and catch up with, but i think i just needed a bit of a break from all of this.

great 180 yesterday though - i mowed the lawn - which in and of itself was i suppose not such a big deal for most people, but for me was huge - physically as well as emotionally

h arrived to pick up s while i was mowing - i didn't stop but finished it off - in fact asked him to move the hose, while i finished.

i sensed that he was stunned - he's sort of been holding that over me: "your'e so helpless i really need to come over and mow your lawn" type of thing.

well, now i'm not!!

if he asks me about it later - which i think he might - i'm just going to say casually - well, you have your own house to take care off soon, so i'm just making sure i can take care of mine. - ooh yuck that didn't sound very good..

any suggestions?

how are you doing, labug? hope you're well

right now, i'm working on my "reactions" - learning to see where the triggers are and immediately deflecting them, as soon as i can. it's helping me a lot to stay in a good place.

zig