i don't know. i see pursuing, anger, and expectations in your writings...
I wont't try to deny that but those are all things that came about during the last month or so. Prior to then I had come to terms with the way things were and our relationship as 'friends' was thriving. I did pursue very briefly but recognised that it would do no good. Db-ing practice once again. I was angry but not because of the loss of a possible reconcilliation but at the loss of her trust in me as a friend. Again, Db'd my way out of that one. Expectations..... well I will admit I had some but again experience gained over the last year has taught me not to have any.
Maybe my sitch is a little different to most in as much as we both still do love each other. I KNOW that she still misses me a lot. I KNOW that at this time she doesn't know which way to turn. I KNOW that I will be there to help all I can and do not expect anything other than her friendship in return. That feeling alone creates an immense feeling of inner calm. I KNOW I couldn't have written those statements 9 months ago.
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Me 48 W 49 D19, S17, D14 Together 25yr, Married 22yr Me checked-out July 10, back Sept 10 W checked out Nov 10 Separated Dec 10 ILYBNILWY 2nd Apr 11 We're finished + D bomb 17th Apr 11