Detached, but not Broken-a diary of a LRT

[Broken74]

Thanks Kaffe! I appreciate your feedback.

I agree and suffice to say I think I have definitely learned my lesson(s) in this regard.

The thing about the kids at this point is as much as I would love to treat them as my own, they are my stepchildren not by biological children(side note I have no children of my own). That dynamic makes things harder in this case, as although I've asked to spend time with them she doesn't allow that to happen because she doesn't want them confused. My oldest SS wanted to play tennis a few weeks ago but W wasn't on board with that.

So the only card I have left is my unconditional love. I want to give them my time and attention but that is now allowed. The only thing I could think to do was to show caring for them by investing in their future, because that's something I can afford to do without any "OK" from her. I am doing this with no expectations which is a good thing because she hasn't acknowledged anything I've set up as yet, and that is totally fine by me. I hope she does send me the car/insurance payment soon since that is due on the 26th...

At any rate, any other thoughts from anyone as to if this is a good or bad idea? It is not a 180 for me because I have always been very giving toward them, and in a way it is like I am force feeding cake because I can't think of any other way to prove my unconditional love since we are not seeing or speaking to each other at all. Does anyone think this is a stupid idea?

In other news I had a tremendously enjoyable and relaxing weekend and hope everyone else here did the same. Good luck to all of you in your respective sitch's! :-)