Well, it's the beginning of a new week, and I am determined to try and do things the right way. I re-read the Divorce Remedy this weekend and I am going to do the last resort technique. I think that is where we are at. I will have to figure out how to do it with the way we see each other so much, but I know that is a good thing too. At least I have opportunities every day to have a positive interaction with him. I am going to get out my journal and make a list of small goals I have for things and steps to get towards them.
Last week was just a really bad week. I didn't adhere to how things should go on my end. We talked a lot, fought, basically did it all wrong. I need to stop trying to listen so much to what he says and taking it as the gospel truth. I keep hearing how he will say things that he doesn't even mean or that he doesn't know to be truth in the long run and letting it hurt and worry about it and then it causes another talk that deteriorates to nothing. I have to start getting a life better, detaching from his words, and making a more positive vibe around the house and our family.
I really have to start asking the question if what I am about to do with help or hurt the results I am trying to get and stick to that path. I react far too much and it is so damaging. I really have to stop trying to picture the future and all the terrible things that can happen that I will have to deal with and trying to head it all off with the grace of a bull in a china shop. I am such an action oriented person, and it's really not helping anything right now.
M 36 H 36 D9,S6, Expecting D in August 2012 M 13 T 18 Told me he wanted to separate 12/31/2011 Moved Out 2/2/2012 Didn't want to work on things, wanted divorce 4/20/2012
