H came over yesterday to do yard work. we had a really wonderful day together. i initiated some kissing and he was fully receptive. then we ML. it was not sex but really love making.
i helped him in the yard which is a 180 for me for the past few years. i used to help him all the time but eventually, i stopped because of resentments. i stopped helping him and he stopped helping me. not a good partnership, huh?
i made him a nice lunch and we ate and talked together. he talked out things we will do in the future! funny how those types of remarks are so important now and would have been totally taken for granted years ago...
we brainstormed on an offer we received on a rental property we're selling. i'm making some calls for us today and he's working on the counter. we're partnering on it and that feels good.
when he left, he pulled me in to kiss me good bye. he texted me later that he was grateful for the help in the yard and the lunch. he also thanked me in advance for the legwork i'll be doing today to get him some answers he needs prior to submitting our counter offer.
all in all, i feel really good about us and peaceful about how we're being towards each other.
i leave on thursday for a cruise with my son and his family (five kids) and i'm really looking forward to it. my H has been very nice about it and i thanked him for that.
no talk about him coming home but i think that has to be his decision only. i won't ask him but will just continue GAL and being the best person i can be with little expectations and lots of patience and introspection.
i'm a happier person now. i can truly say that this has been the worst thing i've ever been through and the best thing that has ever happened to me.
M:63 H:53 S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23 M:15 T:16
Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways." H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12 12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing
