Not sure where to start, Part 2

[wishing, hoping]

Had a decent day despite the roller coaster. Went shopping and then to S's soccer game. Our team lost, but they played a good game. Afterward S went to a friend's house to do a homework assignment while D took a long needed nap. Have to say I took a cat nap as well. Talked to some good friends on the phone which lifted my spirits a bit.

Doing a little different thing and wearing my new sporty glasses. Usually I wear contacts but thought I would shake things up a bit. Also I have taken to straightening my hair but today decided to curl it and I think it looks damn cute. Too bad I am the only one around to admire it.

H still not home. Poor kids. S asked me when dad would be home and I said I had no idea what dad's schedule is. Feel so bad that I can't answer their questions. I can't tell them the truth that their dad is just being a selfish a'hole right now.

H did finally admit that this whole situation had nothing really to do with me and what I had or hadn't done, but to straighten out his head an try to find some happiness. So my counselor was right. He is running from reality to the fantasy. I am really surprised he admitted that to me.