Mornings are hard, to get motivated and enjoy the day. Be grateful for your beautiful kids and plan a great day for them. Just focus on today. Dont think about the future.
Logic will not work with your H. Only time.
Spend some money to update your look and wardrobe. Take a lesson or class. Be the woman only a fool would leave!
You can do it!
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---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
Thanks BK. Mornings I just feel so alone. I am by no means a morning person and my energy is at it's lowest at this time. Better when D comes in and snuggles with me.
And you are right. Words are wasted on H. I need to concentrate On the kids and myself.
S has a soccer game today so I think I will do some shopping beforehand. I did sign up for zumba and trying to keep my schedule full and my mind busy. Plus I have lots of great friends who are very supportive.
It's a beautiful day and it's full of promise. I need to start seeing the glass as half full.
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 J marries OW 1/24/15 "No matter where you go, there you are"
I feel the same way just when I think I have detached something else pops up. I don't know how I show him I am a woman only a fool would leave when I never see H?
That sounds like a good plan! Enjoy your day. Focus on the good things and keep working on yourself, you still have your H at home so you can keep showing him your changes.
You know funny thing is when he was telling me about things yesterday he mentioned that in January when he was trying to decide what he wanted to do he saw me trying harder and that just pushed him away. So doing the things he hated pushed him away and then doing the things he liked pushed him away. I just don't think he will recognize any changes so I am just doing things for me and my kids. And try not to have a panic attack.
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 J marries OW 1/24/15 "No matter where you go, there you are"
Had a decent day despite the roller coaster. Went shopping and then to S's soccer game. Our team lost, but they played a good game. Afterward S went to a friend's house to do a homework assignment while D took a long needed nap. Have to say I took a cat nap as well. Talked to some good friends on the phone which lifted my spirits a bit.
Doing a little different thing and wearing my new sporty glasses. Usually I wear contacts but thought I would shake things up a bit. Also I have taken to straightening my hair but today decided to curl it and I think it looks damn cute. Too bad I am the only one around to admire it.
H still not home. Poor kids. S asked me when dad would be home and I said I had no idea what dad's schedule is. Feel so bad that I can't answer their questions. I can't tell them the truth that their dad is just being a selfish a'hole right now.
H did finally admit that this whole situation had nothing really to do with me and what I had or hadn't done, but to straighten out his head an try to find some happiness. So my counselor was right. He is running from reality to the fantasy. I am really surprised he admitted that to me.
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 J marries OW 1/24/15 "No matter where you go, there you are"
I am glad you had a great day. I have been wearing my glasses lately too how funny! Sad I can see better with them just hard to go outside without sunglasses.
Doesn't matter if only you are there to admire it, everyone feels better when they look good!!
That is hard with the kids asking about when dad will be home... [censored]... my kids don't even ask about when they will see dad. that breaks my heart too. The whole situation just hurts everyone except the WAS. This would be so much easier if I didn't have kids, I think that is why I am having such a hard time letting go.
Wow... I am suprised your H admitted that to you. that is great that he actually knows that. Has he talked at all about moving out?? Have you been served? I know your sig says he filed.
Yes I was served a little over a month ago. We have gone over finances and parenting stuff. It [censored]. He is hell bent on this divorce. I have no doubt it will go through. I don't like it but I am starting to wonder if I am wanting this marriage to work out so I can win or because I love H. I know the last year for us has been extremely stressful. I wasnt very happy either.
He is not planning on moving out until we sell the house which has not been listed yet. So I will have to live with him until the house sells. Which is bittersweet. More time for him to see my changes but it will be very emotional for me especially if he continues to leave every weekend.
He even wants us to buy side by side condos so we can be neighbors. That jus blows my mind. So he still wants me around but doesn't want to be married to me? I can't quite figure that one out.
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 J marries OW 1/24/15 "No matter where you go, there you are"
And yes I couldn't believe he said that either. He had tears in his eyes. I think H is so unhappy and lost he didn't know what to do. Now he is in the clutches of OW and addicted at this point. He is codependent she is needy. A match made in heaven. I hope one day he wakes up and realizes what we had was not all bad
AT BD: WH 41, J 43; Bomb 2/5/2012 Two kids, one dog D Final 6/18/14 J marries OW 1/24/15 "No matter where you go, there you are"
That does sux... Living together is hard when you are apart some of the most tension filled days were with H at home after he dropped the bomb. I was devasted when he moved out but it really felt better after awhile. It was so hard to come home when I was walking on eggshells. I was hoping when he moved out he would miss me but he was too caught up with OW.
Why on earth does he want you to buy side by side condos?? has he lost his mind??
He leaves every weekend?? When do you get a weekend off?? I say you make a plan and you go away for a weekend. Let him stay with the kids and wonder where you are.
I know that feeling too, I don't want the man that my H is now. I want the one I remember. The one I miss. This man is a stranger.
