Not sure where to start, Part 2

[wishing, hoping]

So if we don't know what the truth is, H&P, how can we ever believe them again? H acts like a 17 year old boy stuck in a middle aged man's body. It is pretty pathetic.

I am actually better at DB when I am not around. I can avoid the temptation to call because there is really nothing to say. I always let him call me. It is when he is around that I get confused. I try to avoid him in the house but it is hard. And whenever I go to a different part of the house he always follows me to see what I am doing.

Now that OW is confirmed it is harder to thought stop. I know she is a symptom not the cause of our marital problems but just when I think I have detached something else pops up.

I just keep telling myself that time is on my side. And that there are great things in store for me.