I know what co-dependent is and yes, I am. She is not someone that can have R right now. She will not get help. I think she will OD again and die first. I guess this is lucky that I don't have to be the one to find her.
Last time we broke up-I got really sick, I mean sucicidal, lost about 25lbs and just could not take it. I am 99% better than that right now and forcing myself to eat and sometimes I am even hungry. I lift weights everyday. I am so scared that I am going to spiral down to that again.
