I don't think that I was manipulating her. I just wanted her to change and was not going to marry her until she did. Which at the time I thought she might.I can't afford counseling right now. I am sure that I need it.
Yeah, I am addicted to having her around. I enjoy doing other things not with her when she is home. Don't take that wrong I did things with her also. I'll get over it, it is just a long road and she seems to have found a short cut that takes all the memories of me away. I think that she love me. Maybe she was just using me. I felt that way sometimes.
