It is me again. Screwed up again.

[25yearsmlc]

Dispite all the bad things that I have said, and they are true, she was my best friend, lover and the person that I told my deepest thoughts to. I have lots of friends but no one that I am really close to. I gave that all to her because that is what I thought a spouse was for.

But it's NOT the purpose of a spouse. No ONE person can meet all of our needs. That is what other family and friends are for. You can't ignore other friends b/c you date her and you need to cultivate those other relationships as much as you can.

Part of that is b/c you don't want to be so dependent on her...so get those other relationships back on track...nurture them so you are stronger and happier.


I dangled the marriage thing over her head. She wanted to get married badly and begged me all the time. Security she said. I didn't want to if she was not going to work and not quit the pills. She wasn't going to.


So you used marriage as a leverage tool to manipulate her with? Are you in counselling yourself or not?

And I am convienced that she does not plan to do either one of those ever. So that is why I must leave, heal, detach and otherwise get over this relationship. Can't be thinking about it 10 hours a day. It is hard to GAL when it is on your mind and you are constantly fighting with your thoughts to push them out.

there are no easy answers except for you to detach and get healthy.

She is your addiction, period.

you know it. There is no denying it.

If you ever want to reclaim your life, now is the time.

If not now, when?