Another beautiful day with my girls. They are so ridiculously cute these days. This morning I said to my almost 2 year old "Lets hit the road Jack" and she said "I Ava, I Ava!" Too sweet. We went on to have a wonderful day in the park with friends.
Late in the afternoon H and I meet up and exchange the kids. Its awful. I am starting to feel numb around him. Especially when I am saying good-bye to the girls. It is not fun. I cant forgive him. I see him as evil when I have to leave my kids.
I really starting to wonder if I can ever heal from this. To imagine 18 more years of handing off my children is unbearable. To think that I could love someone again that has inflicted our family with this disease is unimaginable.
Didnt get much done this evening but I am going to bed early and I have a busy day tomorrow.
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
