Not sure where to start, Part 2

[wishing, hoping]

That's just it. I can't believe a word he says because even when he comes clean, he still doesn't come clean. I used to know he would never lie to me. I used to think he would never cheat. He is just so different.

In one breath he tells me that I made such a hostile environment he could not take it anymore and the next breath says it isnt me at all but about him trying to find happiness.

My mind is spinning. My H needs help. And a serious reality check.